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Falling Flat on My Face

Ten days ago I fell flat on my face, landing on cement. As a result, I was in the hospital for three days, had a brain hemorrhage/concussion and a broken orbital bone in my left eye. The recovery has been challenging because I’m not supposed to strain my eyes or stress my brain by thinking too hard. So, no reading, no looking at my phone, computer or TV. Thank goodness for audiobooks and podcasts.


I will have surgery on Thursday, Sept. 2 (today!) at 3:30 p.m. to repair my eye. In three weeks I should be back to "normal" if there are no complications. So far the hardest things for me have been 1) not being able to walk my dogs 2) having to postpone getting my manuscript to my editor (wow - that sounds so cool to say!) and 3) headaches, dizziness, double vision.


Resting can be lonely and boring, but thanks to friends on social media, the encouragement has kept me from going nuts. I am sooooooooo fortunate and blessed to have caring, loving friends out there messaging me.


Falling flat on my face has forced hours of lying around thinking. I’m thankful it wasn’t worse. It reminds me we NEVER know what is going to happen next. A normal day can end up in some sort of tragedy. But if we worry about stuff that hasn’t happened yet, we waste the moment we’re in.


An Eckhart Tolle quote says:


“Realize deeply that the present moment is all you have. Make the NOW the primary focus of your life.”


It’s true. None of us are guaranteed tomorrow. I’ve been thinking about the U.S. military men who lost their lives last week, all the innocent Afghans who lost their lives or homes or family members. And the thousands in Haiti who perished in the earthquake 2 weeks ago, their entire city destroyed - it seems to have fallen out of the headline news. And here in the states, so many devastating fires on the West Coast that are burning down homes and killing wildlife, the hurricane that has left millions without power in Louisiana and tornadoes on the East Coast.


So I don’t have a helluva lot to complain about. I am safe in my house with excellent doctors looking after me and all my basic needs are met. My “now” in life is quiet. If I feel stressed or frustrated, I have to bring myself back to a place of gratitude and acceptance.

Crying is not good for my eye right now, so I’ve learned to cry internally when I get sad and miss Keven (he’d take good care of me if he was here).


My dogs miss being walked, but love having so much snuggle time with me - sometimes it’s the small things in life that get you through the day.


Thanks for reading!






5 comentários


Tori Lee
Tori Lee
03 de set. de 2021

All considered you "sound" pretty good. You just rest as much as you need and get better!


By the way, that meme is perfect!

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Barbara Legere
Barbara Legere
03 de set. de 2021
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Thanks, Tori. I hope you are getting some rest too. You've got a heavy load to carry. I am keeping my spirits up - except for when I wish Keven was here, no matter what condition he was in he managed to take care of his mama when she didn't feel good.

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Well you sure have had quite a time. I’m glad you are doing better and that your eye will be fixed soon. When I had a detached retina I was really scared about the surgery, but really it wasn’t anything at all to be worried about and you are awake during it, so if you are out, even better. That led to cataract surgery, then laser and now I am at the best vision wise I have been in a long time. Take it easy and do what they say and let yourself heal. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.

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Barbara Legere
Barbara Legere
02 de set. de 2021
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Thanks, Lacey, that's encouraging. I will be all the way out for this, the insert a titanium mesh sling to hold my eyeball in place. I'm also scheduled for cataract surgery, i hope they dont postpone it because of this.

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Helga Culbert
Helga Culbert
02 de set. de 2021

Wishing you the best possible outcome of your surgery today! You've got this! In 2007 I fell on concrete and shattered by left elbow. I had to have a plate and 8 screws inserted to put it back together again. Everything will be ok!

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